Solitude can be good.

As you guys can tell, I've been having a lot of downtime lately..

And it is not completely bad. I don't go out any more. I don't hang out with friends. I don't even call them any more. I barely talk over the phone.

It's just a state I am in right now.  These days, I just wanna have a coffee by myself, listen to music and peak outside the window. I am sorry, if that sounds like sadness or depression but it isn't. I am just rewarding myself some ME time. To think about a few things and make some  upcoming critical decisions in life.

This is the time for me to stop doing things for others and to do something for myself. We have complex lives, and sometimes we just have set backs. Many of us feel to measure our success and evaluate ourselves in terms of our achievements. Not only that, but to also look back at our relationships with our family. Who said, relationships at home don't need work? Everything needs a little bit of effort. It can't be one-sided only.

I've been home the entire holidays, chilling with my parents. We had lost that connection since I started working. Now, I've been giving them the time they deserve. And frankly, I've enjoyed it myself. And Happy Birthday mom =) I love you so much! You have always given me the best of everything, and I hope I can fulfil all your dreams and desires someday.

Back to solitude..
I am enjoying watching TV, hanging out with family, cleaning and doing all those things I didn't have the time for before. I am saving lots of money not eating out every weekend, and also saving myself from the percentage of fat that I would be taking in. I think I am being more creative and thinking of ways to utilize my time better. A friend of mine has suggested that may be I should begin to write a book, and I am thinking.. I just might.

If we are always focussed on external socialization, we sometimes miss the opportunity for inner growth. Solitude is not a sad thing, at all. For me, it is kind of like a cure to figure out the solutions for everything. I think I am also beginning to realize the people who are important and who aren't. Giving yourself some off time gives you an opportunity to evaluate your relationships as well. When you're constantly connected with people and trying to interact, you don't have the time to evaluate those connections.

Plus, I've got two more weeks of work left. And college starting Monday! I definitely have a lot coming up, so looking forward to it.. and prepping myself for it =) It's 3 a.m. and tomorrow's a working day. It's just one of those days when you can't sleep even if you try. Argghhh! Goodnight folks!