Fuck you, math.

It's so strange how life works. First, you want something and you wait and wait and wait and it feel's like it's taking forever to come. And then, all of a sudden.. you have it and all you want to do is curl right back up in the moment before things changed. Anyway..

So, I've finally hired a professional tutor after failing the first Stats test. Tomorrow is the last day to drop the course with a 50% refund. I am so confused. I still have a feeling that I might end up dropping it and come back for another semester for no goddamn reason. I really don't want to, but my mind has already given up. I have no courage to do this anymore :(

Life is so dull right now. It needs to be fun. It's summer. I haven't met any friends yet. I've done nothing. I wanna shop, go out, have fun. I wanna pull a trip to Montreal with my bestie. I wanna do so many things, right after this course is over. I have less than 3 weeks left and I still feel that no amount of tutoring can help me pass this course. Yes, I am that dumb when it comes to Stats.

Other than that, my grandma is enjoying her stay here. I am happy that she is.