An emotional confession

I feel so bad today. And it's taking a lot of guts out of me to make this confession. I am really sorry to have hurt people knowingly or unknowingly. I owe an apology to someone whose heart I broke in a very conscious state. I have no excuse to put myself in a blame-free zone for that. I am really really sorry. I know you probably hate me so much because it has been seven or eight months, but I am really very sorry. I wish "sorry" glued back or fixed broken hearts. But I want you to know that I am not spineless. I do feel very guilty inside. And I definitely think lower of myself having done that to you.

I know how difficult it is to regain the respect and trust back from a person you wronged and frankly nothing really builds it back up. It has been done to me twice, so I know how it feels. People build a wall up around them in order to move on with their lives, but inside that wall remains sadness, hurt and feelings of anger. No one likes to feel this way or to be hurt by the ones they love. By making this post, I am attempting to show how much you meant to me, and how much I loved you, and how bad I really feel inside. Sadly, there is not enough I can do about it. All I can do is apologize to you, as I have done a million times before and hope, that you will forgive me one day.  The last thing I want is hatred from another person. I really do mean it.

I am a human like any other person. And we all make mistakes. We all have got our hearts broken and shattered other people's hearts as well. I am sure you have too. But I have grown over the years, and I have come to realize my own mistakes. And I came clean to you right after hurting you. And I also did all I could to fix the problem. Usually people apologize and do it again. That's why they say, never forgive someone who broke your heart. But I am apologizing because I really mean it. I wouldn't have the opportunity to do it again. And even if I did, I would never hurt you. I am sorry for everything. And I am sorry for anyone else that I have harmed over the years. I really do feel low today and wish that I could fix old hurts.