Prepared for mixed feelings.

Excited? Confused? Lost? Ready?
I have no idea.

We will find out.

I am trying to relax but that is clearly not happening. I was on the go the entire day from the moment I woke up until now. It is currently 3:16 am. I have to pick up my mom from work at 7:00 am. So, I guess I will be getting 2 hours of sleep tonight as well. As the date for moving creeps up closer, mixed emotions are completely normal. But the anxiety is killing me already. I am looking forward to anything and everything but I am pretty much clueless about what life's gonna throw at me.

I just spoke to a friend on the phone and he said, "Go with the flow.."

I guess I can stop being hyper for now.

I woke up pretty late today because of sleeping late last night of course. The moment I woke up, I started gathering and packing whatever I could. I hate to prepare some personal items (I will disclose them in future blogs and explain why) and that took me the longest. I had to run errands and drop by a couple of stores. Then, I went to meet a friend who wanted to give me something before I go. He got me a 'rudraaksh' from India (something I really wanted!) I am excited about wearing it on my wrist now. For those who don't know what it looks like, I am posting a picture here.

Then, I went to meet Kanchi for the last time before I fly. We went to Kwality as we both were starving. Good old times :) but it was nothing like a goodbye. We were pretty normal and talked about basic stuff. I hugged her goodbye and that was it. Then, I headed to drop mom off to work. And then I went to meet the mister and spend some quality time. We watched a chick flick with popcorn and then went out for a pizza slice in our hoodies - which is CLASSIC us. Laid back & chill. It didn't even feel like it was our last casual date before I leave.

Goodbyes are heart-wrenching. I don't know if anyone knows this about me but... I never go to the airport for somebody's departure. I remember when my cousins came from England in 2004, I went to watch a movie at the time of their departure to avoid going to the airport. And when they came around this time, I was lucky there wasn't a spot in the car for me. I absolutely hate saying goodbyes. So, now that it is happening to me - it is quite weird. You guys can make it less weird by bringing me chocolates? Yeah? Just kidding =)

I actually haven't spent much time at all with my family in the last couple of months. And now that I have a day left, I have a million things on my checklist for tomorrow. I don't even know if I will get a chance to sit down with them before I go. This was the opportunity for me to celebrate and create happy memories so that the atmosphere isn't gloomy and worry-some.

So.. tomorrow, I'll be hopping onto the onset of fatigue from 7:00 am till pretty much midnight. Wish me luck guys!