Les Bitches

If I could share stories from high school about bullying on here.. it'd prove that I am a warrior. But, just like me.. so many other girls have put up with bullying through school. Women are so mean to each other, it's unbelievable. It drives me crazy just thinking about it.

I remember this one incident in grade 8, when a girl said something about me to her friend. I was right there and she didn't happen to notice me. We were graduating from middle school and it was photo day. I had put on a little bit of my mom's lipstick for the picture because I've always loved makeup (needless to say). I heard her saying, "Can't you see the amount of lipstick she's globbed on? She's trying to catch his attention." I won't name the boy. She liked a guy in our class who was in my Math class group. He talked to me probably to get answers off of me. She thought may be I liked him and that I wanted to catch his attention.. uh, with my lips? LOL. I am glad we've grown up.

Then came high school.. I cannot even remember the amount of times I've heard comments about myself. We had this certain "mean girls group in our school. Their day job was to be nasty to other people. It was like their social responsibility to make fun of girls who are fat, the ones who didn't get their eyebrows done and so on. I have always bluntly admitted that I was chubby since childhood. I have never really been "slim." I had chunky arms throughout high school. This girl passed by me and giggled. She went on to a guy in the hallway and said, "She's got biceps bigger than yours!"

I mean.. I don't need to go on and describe the kind of situations I have been through. People were called "sluts" if they genetically had bigger breasts than the rest. You were bushy if you didn't shave or get your eyebrows done. People were teased for their mustaches and they went and got their upper lip done. They were teased during gym class if they suck at a sport. Someone maliciously hit me with a dodge ball in my face once. It was a girl. Of course.

When I was 15, I heard a rumor about myself. "She is dating a 24 old truck driver." Umm, I was 15. FIFTEEN. And, truck driver? Gosh.. really? Some girls cannot process without spreading rumors and lies.

Some of us have grown up. And for some, high school isn't over. Unfortunately, these girls haven't grown up. Their behavior is the same. They cannot go by without bullying another person. Their nature is often dominating and they treat every one else as subservient to them.

I believe that women are smarter than men. Not only do women know how to hurt other women, they know how to hit exactly where it hurts. Have we really mastered bullying so much that we can now victimize another woman within a matter of a few seconds? Are women really that malicious?

I went to someone's house warming party today. There is this girl who always comes to every party at this particular person's house. I've heard a lot about her in terms of her character. There is also a guy there who has made out with her. Every time he comes and talks to me, it's like she is on fire. She will start giving me dirty looks. She hates me. Period. She cannot stand me. And the funniest thing is.. I don't even care about the dude. He's an idiot. And she's equally an idiot. Both of them can go off to idiot island and have idiot babies. Why are you gonna put me in the middle of your crap?

I was playing with little kids. The woman decides to step in and talk to the child I was playing with. She was trying to lure him into leaving the game we were playing so he can go up to her. By this.. I am guessing she was attempting to get "an upper hand" of some sort. She thought it would be insulting if the kid leaves me and goes to her, as if it's some sort of an achievement to her. You know what I did? I told the kid.. "Beta.. someone is calling you, please go listen to what they have to say. You should listen to elders." The kid ran off to play elsewhere. And she just continued giving me dirty looks. I don't even know her. We have never talked. How can she already have all this hate towards me?

She did the entire high school scene today. She cornered me out and stood in a group with all the guys. We were the only 2 girls in the entire party. You know how we were excluded from lunches at the "cool" people's table in school? She attempted to do the same. All of them sat at one table and I sat by myself. But, I chose to. I went with my family to this party. I could have joined them. But I purposely sat alone to show her that you are doing NOTHING that is going to make me feel any less about myself. I will sit here alone and eat my food while you sit with 10 guys. Let me know if that made you feel any better about yourself.

The main reason why people bully is to hurt you. You don't know what they are gaining by hurting you.. whatever it is.. the main objective is to hurt you. And showing her that I can have a great time in the sun sitting by myself and enjoying my meal was kind of my answer to her bullying. Bullies cannot tolerate that you are happy. I very much have the capability to bully her back. She sexted somebody her intimate pictures and she doesn't know that I know. I probably had 100 times more things to say about her. But, I didn't. Because if you bully back, then what is the difference between you two?

My mantra was to be friendly and confident. I didn't care about all these petty moves she made to make me feel bad. Whatever she was challenging me about didn't work. She was probably pissed that she is running after a dude who doesn't pay much attention to her when I am around. I stood there looking calm and composed while her insecurities were oozing out of her. I was convinced she'd get bored at one point from the "non-reaction" that she was receiving from my end and move on to another victim. Unfortunately, I was the only girl there other than her.

I know I judged her without even talking to her once because of all the things I have seen and heard about her. She is pretty open about herself too. It is evident in her flirtacious nature and sense of dressing. I wouldn't wear low cuts and capris to a pooja. I wore a salwaar-kameez. Even if I keep the clothes aside, you can just guess what their motive is. It was a pooja and she didn't even go inside until someone came and forced a dupatta on her and sent her in.

Anyway.. I just wanted to write this blog for that obnoxious girl. I hope she can come up to me someday and openly express her grief or anger towards me. What is it that she gets pissed about? When she gets out of the entire "catching every guy's attention" phase, may be then she will notice that we have no problem at all. I hope she gets over whatever insecurities she has and finally graduates. She is twenty-six by the way. But she still hasn't come out of high school... if you know what I mean.. *Sigh*