Learned to let it go

It's crazy how much I have changed over the past few months. I still surprise myself. For one, I don't have the same kind of time in my life as I did before. I am not obsessed with Facebook and social networking to the extent I used to be. I am not interested in people's lives as I used to be to some extent before. And most importantly, I am less angry of a person, lol.

Nish and & I had a heart-to-heart and he thought my stance in our previous arguments has been really commendable. How so? I am not so argumentative any more. I've learned to compose myself and act tactfully in a given situation. It's not a lie when they say work teaches you a lot of things. Not only work, I believe I have grown up with the birthday this year. It sounds silly because I am comparing myself to last year, but trust me, the changes are noticeable.

I entered this committed relationship after many years of commitment issues. The issue being that I did not want to be committed, lol. I acted like a baby many times. I overreacted many times. This is not to say that he didn't. He was equally the baby I was. But I feel that we have walked past the stage where we walk away from conversations, act stupid in public and all those issues we faced at that time.

For some reason, I just do not get that kind of an anger reaction anymore. I was yelled at a few times by him in certain situations. Surprisingly, I took it and just went silent. He apologized later without me having to say anything. And I was all okay with it. Have I learned to be a good girl? :/ That scares me.

Why am I not as bad-ass as I used to be? Not that fighting with your partner makes you bad-ass or anything. But I did have rowdy behaviour as a part of my personality. It has eventually faded away and I still wonder how it all happened. So, all the people that I have had grudges for in the past - if you're reading, I am all for mending things now-a-days =)

I actually ended up sorting things out with a few friends that I hadn't spoken to in years. And I feel much better this way. Your heart feels lighter, and you're a happier person. And of course, you have one less person to worry about hating you, lol. Have a great weekend everyone!