My life in words, many words.

Friday, July 27, 2012

We do, yes we do.

If anyone had asked me whether I will be deeply in love before my 22nd birthday, I would've said "hell no." But the truth is, I am deeply in love. Exactly 20 days till August 16, the beautiful day last year when we first met. Over the course of our time together, we've put each other through a lot. Things that we regret doing, harsh words that we wish we would take back, and wasted weeks fighting. But we always offered and received forgiveness. Now, if this is not love, then I don't know what is.

I consider myself one of the luckiest women around. At a time when I wasn't even looking for anyone to be in my life, you came about. And in the past, when I tried to look for someone, I fell flat on the ground. This makes me believe, that sometimes things are meant to be. I cherish you for that reason. Your faith in me makes me stronger, more than I ever imagined.

For the guy who bought me red roses for no particular reason in the last year. The guy who'd bring coffee and food for me while I studied at the library. The guy who would just drop by to tell me that I am going to do really well on so and so assignment. The guy who would drive from anywhere, in killer traffic if I needed him. The guy who loves my parents like his own. The man who runs his own business and understands the value of work and money. The work-a-holic who also understands that he needs to live. That's when I came along, and he started doing things in life he never did before. Our enjoyable dates. Every new day was a new date.

To be honest, I only dreamt of a day when someone would love me so much. And especially when it happened last year, on my birthday, I completely changed. Never believed in soulmates, and the mushy love crap. But now I do. The guy who could sit there for hours and make a wonderful sketch of me, especially after picking up an art pencil after 6 years. The first person who loves me in an unbelievable way. Who just doesn't say he loves me, he does everything to "prove it." For the man who never lets me give up, and keeps me strong, even when I didn't think I was worth it. My only sunshine when the times were dark. The guy not only is a part of my world, but also treats my friends with equal respect. The guy made me feel beautiful even when I was 35 lbs heavier. The one who made me believe in my inner beauty, and ignored what was on the outside. An ultimate boyfriend. Many girls' envy. I am a proud and happy woman today, and much more confident in my skin than I was before, and the credit goes to you.

Today, I am putting into words what I feel for you, it has been a long heartfelt journey. I didn't think the year would go by so quick. You have truly taught me what love is. I have told others I loved them in the past and heard the words back, yet it wasn't love. I only knew what love really was the day you came into my life. It made me realize that it was more than just a few words and feelings. It came with a lot of responsibility and maturity as well as unconditional love and care. I thank you for loving me despite the wrongs I have done, and the words I may have spoken to you that hurt you.

Unlike others, you are here for me all the time. It's not part time, that you come at your convenience. You have always been there. I know I am such a snob sometimes, and not easy to deal with, yet you still put up with all my "nakhre." I can't even begin to tell you how special that makes me feel. The fact that you do anything and everything to make me happy, whether you are happy or not. The fact that you put me before you. I only saw this in Bollywood movies, I swear. No wonder I feel like Kajol sometimes. I like that look in your eyes when you watch me eat dessert and how fast I gobble up sugar. And when we share a dessert, you eat slow so I can have most of it. All the little things that you do - from holding doors to wiping my tears, and also telling me that I look like a raccoon with my eyeliner smudged. Also, when you ask me whether I bought my foundation to fix the witch-art on my face when I cry :)

I am more comfortable with you, than I am with myself. I can be as silly and stupid as I wish to be, and you certainly take advantage of that. I love that you have an awesome family, and I don't think I could have gotten any luckier in the "saas-bahu" department because your mom is such a sweetheart!

We have shared too many memories, happiness, sadness, laughter, crazyness, hard times and I know there are many more years with all these ingredients in our fate. I want you by my side for all the years that I am going to live. And again, to remind you.. if you like it, then you should put a ring on it. So, think about our engagement in the upcoming years :) Believe me, it will the happiest day of our lives.

In the end, all I wanna say is.. I love you baby. Another 20 days, and we'll celebrate  =)


1 comment:

  1. This is the best blog you have written so far...I totally enjoyed reading it and felt so happy for you! You two deserve each other...good luck for your future together!

    Jyoti

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