Pour yourself a drink, put on some lipstick, and pull yourself together.

Hi. The reason I have not been blogging is not because I have been busy enjoying myself in the holidays. It's actually quite the opposite. I know I know! I am sucha party pooper and a constant whiner. I have so much going in my head these days. And I have been upset about many things. I don't know what it actually is. I am so moody, cranky and over-emotional. I have been crying a heck lot, and I should be doing the opposite - which is genuinely enjoying the time that I have off and making most of it till I go back to school, which is in three days. I love my parents to death and whenever something goes wrong at home, I just can't live. I am serious. I think of fleeing home or something. Hats off to those teenagers who go through so much at home, those who have abusive parents etc. My parents are probably the best parents in the world. And I really have no complains about anything. But every time there is an outburst at home (which is normal, you can't be happy all the time), I get deeply upset about it.

Ironic to my blog, as everyone thinks I put everything out there so easily. There ARE some things that I keep to myself. I haven't spoken of many problems I have been encountering since the beginning of my university life. My parents don't know a thing because I have never shared. I have been all bottled-up. And I think the lid has now fell off and the things are starting to pop out because it has reached its full capacity. Having his support at this time means a lot to me. He always tells me to be expressive with my parents and tell them what's bothering me instead of keeping it to myself. But I never have. An episode took place on Christmas Eve and I went to sleep crying. I mean, really? While everyone was enjoying downstairs and laughing.. I was upstairs crying. And I take that to be my fault. What have I learned out of this situation? That I wasted half of my holidays sobbing for no reason!

A lot of people tell me that giving yourself positive affirmations always helps. A blog link sent to me by Sonia refers directly to what I am talking about. Thanks Sonia for the link! The person has a single mantra for life - every time something goes wrong with her, she tells herself, "I am the luckiest person in the world."
One might think, does that really work? I do the opposite. Every time something happens, I tell myself I am cursed, and my life sucks an blah like many others do. But if we do the opposite, it might just work. For the days I have left, I have really planned to just enjoy myself before I get back to studies. I have wonderful parents, and the best significant other and awesome friends. (Yet I find something or the other to complain about, lol). Oh well.. wishing all of you a very very very happy holidays and New Year!

P.S. The health blog was not just a gimmick, I realized there was no point doing that in the holidays. Living at my house, you can't even lose weight. There have been crazy amount of parties and I figured.. why not just start from January 1st? So, I will get on it next year! :D