The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most.

Instead of doing my assignment for tomorrow, I just changed the blog layout lol :) Some of you complained that you had to compromise your vision reading the blog because of the strong white and black contrast. Wrong choice. I also took off the birthday picture, clearly because my birthday month is gone. I added more pictures that have a personal meaning to me. I added a lovey dovey picture because clearly now I have love in my life. And I am stupid like that, so yeah.

Another thing I wanted to comment on. I read something on Facebook right now. It was written on someone's status. Here, I'll quote it for you:-

"As we grow up, we learn that even the person that wasn't supposed to let us down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and if it was harder every time, you'll break hearts too. So remember how it felt when someone broke yours. You will fight with your best friends and may be fall in love with them. You will blame a new love for the things the old one did. You will cry because time is passing too fast and you'll eventually love someone close to you. So, take too many pictures, laugh as much as you breath and love like you have never been hurt before. Because every 60 second you spend angry or upset is a minute of happiness that you will never get back."

I found this quote pretty interesting. Some of you might be thinking, "Ohhh.. not one of those cheesy life quotes again!" But you know, it has a deep meaning. I could relate to it and I am sure you can too. I have had my heart broken. I have then, broken hearts myself. And at this point, what relates the most out of this quote is the fact that "you will blame a new love for the things the old one did." I think, some things just change in you because of your past. I was unappreciated so much, that I forgot how to even be grateful to the things I am getting now. I must say, I am treated like a princess. But then, he deserves to be treated like a prince too. And I have to let go off the baggage from the previous relationships. It's hard to. You just hold onto some things. Like, being cold. I was ignored so much throughout my first relationship that lasted nearly three years. I am just so cold, and I don't even realize it. I give up easily. I used to make a 150 calls when there used to be a fight, being that childish person in high school. Now, I'll count and call thrice, if you don't pick up - screw you. First, I used to go to crazy extents to apologize for something and make up for it. Now, it's an apology - either you take it or you leave it. I mean, I don't know. He expects a little bit of pampering and chasing after him. I am not sure if I am even that person anymore. I really can't do all that.

I don't know what else to even say about this...