I feel like bragging about myself today. Interested?

I am not trying to imply the fact that I was a geek and now I am
a superstar or anything. But something similar.. people judge me by
the face a lot, and no one bothers to see what I am all about. 

Last night, a really old high school friend Impreet left me a wonderful message. And it wasn't the appreciation that got me writing this blog, it was the content of his message that got me thinking about what I was in high school. Oh, how people change and grow! I was barely 16 that time, I remember. And my worries were completely different. My priorities were different. You know.. typical teenager?

I kinda just re-lived the whole memory in my head and it's amazing how people change and grow with time. You don't even realize when you start making right decisions in life coming from a time where you didn't even know the divide between right and wrong. I am sure all of you can relate to this and look back and say "Wow, was I that stupid in high school?" I surely say this a lot to myself! I actually was quite stupid! We all have done things we shouldn't have, hung out with people who weren't the greatest of influence, purposely put our studies on stake, were totally responsible ourselves for heart-wrecks because we wanted a "cool" boyfriend who was probably just a dumb guy in actual. Sums it all up, doesn't it? Remember the drama with your own girls? The bitchiest things happening to you, without even you being involved? Skipping classes? Getting caught by the vice-principal, sitting in the office? Oh goodness! I didn't even care about high school for grade 9 and 10. Here is all I experienced and saw in those two years and I am pretty sure all of you can agree to it hands down!

High school, a world where everyone talks about each other, lies, tries to be something they're not, cannot keep secrets, friendships that have lasted for years are broken, immaturity, name calling, putting labels on people, jealousy, talking smack, dirty looks, mean stares, where people get high and grades get low, first boyfriends, all the girls trying to plastic themselves with makeup, where your bestfriend becomes a bitch, coke becomes vodka, cell phones are being used in class, french kissing becomes sex, lollipops become cigarettes, detention becomes suspension, catwalking the hallways, catching attention, procrastinating, and where everyone is just trying their best to grow up the fastest as they can!

And now, in a world where I wish everything would just slow down because things are going too fast. Last year of university, looking for a job, career, student loans. BIGGER worries than the ones listed above. The last paragraph was our entire world at one time. And now I think, really? I started shaping up in grade 11 when I was dumped really badly, my first heart break. And I put all the sorrow towards my studies and graduated as an Ontario Scholar with an 87% and scholarship :) And now, being a COMPLETELY different person.. just feels amazing! Although I wish I could delay growing any more. I am supposed to turn 21 in two months and I wish I could just pause at 20 for another two years. So, people in high school trying to grow up too fast and do things that you're not supposed to do - don't. It's not worth it. Not every time do you learn lessons without harming yourself. So be careful! Just a word of advice, throwing it out there.

Now is the time, where I don't follow anyone and make right decisions on my own without other people having to tell me what is right. You know you are grown up when you put other people's feelings before your own, when you look ahead into the future and make wise decisions in life based on that, when you assess your actions and their consequences, when you can contain your emotions and not let anger seep through, taking full responsibility for yourself and blaming less things on destiny and on other people, and most importantly, being mature and finding and having the strength to move on ahead in life in the face of despair.

Thank you all for reading my blog and sending me your comments. When I read words of encouragement from other people and find out that people read my blog (some who I would never have imagined), it just makes it all the more worthy. Thank you all once again! =)