A dislike of humankind.

We all know it. The past hunts us down once in a while and makes us realize the things we did, or what we were. I got a call from someone unwanted again. Why! Why apologize for things when you know you can't change what you've fucked up. Even if you say it a thousand times, it still won't change a THING. Especially not for you, since you've fucked up bad. This picture may have the most obvious of a phrase, but it means a heck lot. "You can't change what's already happened." But sure, you can change anything regarding it in the future. And I chose to move on. When things happen, it might not be the best solution to sort them right away, if there is a lot of anguish involved. But don't leave issues unattended for so long, that they lose importance and die out. Don't call me after 8 months to apologize about something. Like, it does not even mean anything to me now.

Things just don't workout sometimes. That's one of the simplest explanations in life. Don't ask me why, how, when, where, what, why and how. I don't have to give you reasons. If I kicked you out of my life, there must be a reason good enough. This is not chess, it's life. Kicking out people for good is not easy. You can dwell on why something that didn't happen or shouldn't have happened all you want and come up with a thousand explanations to justify it, but the truth is, it HAPPENED. So just move on! Most people want reasons why things are the way they are, but you are simply holding on to the past when what you really need to do is moving on. You can look at those broken pieces and hurt yourself each time. OR you can leave those pieces on the floor, and move the fuck on. Where's my like button? Love that second option! :)
When things don't work out, you will eventually find something that will. Shit happens, learn to put it behind you and not try to stick onto things if there is no hope.

I even told him, if it's okay, I'll take the blame for everything but let's just try leaving each other alone. People just play the blame game and still have the guts to point fingers at you after fucking things up themselves. It's okay. I don't even keep grudges anymore. I forgive you for whatever happened, but just not enough to take you back into my life. I've made my life sort of a privilege to anyone now to keep all the assholes out. So, if you wanted to be in it, you should have maintained a relationship, or have tried to at least.

Here is an awesome quote by Mother Teresa to sum up this blog.
"People are often unreasonable and self centered. Forgive them anyway. If you are kind, people may accuse of you ulterior motives. Be kind anyway. If you are honest, people may cheat you. Be honest anyway. If you find happiness, people may be jealous. Be happy anyway. The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway. For you see, is in the end, it's between you and God, it was never between you and them anyway." :)