Here's what, I don't feel like writing full sentences today. I think certain words are enough to express my feelings for today.
Stress. Hurt. Conflict. Confused. Shattered. Contemplating. Workload. Pressure.
Each word has a story to it. If you do the math (which I can't), eight stories are waiting for me. I don't wanna talk about anything in relation to what's going on. I just want to write about some general thoughts today. I will be mentioning some valuable information for people who want to attend a law school. I attended an entire session on it today and there is too much to share. I don't want people researching like crazy (ahem, like me) and not finding out definitive answers. I hope it will answer your questions and concerns. So, keep a watch for the next post.
So, how am I feeling today? Needy. Of 'real' people.
I feel sickened by human behavior at times. It's not new. I just feel disgusted by it all.
I have been troubled morally and spiritually enough times, but I don't keep a record for my troubles. I usually let it out of my system. It takes only a couple of days. But what do you do with people who scar you so crudely and don't even acknowledge that they did it? Do you talk or do you not? Do they even deserve to be in your life? Could they possibly call themselves 'friends?' Some of you told me that it's disgraceful if they would.
Most of you are telling me to look past it. But no person has the right to advise you about how to repair your hurt feelings, because no one knows how much you're hurting. That goes for all of you who rely on advise from others. It's useless trying to put in words, how you are feeling about certain things.
I am wondering how you deal with permanent scars. I am not used to the notion of permanence in life, as of yet.
Aditi just came by and thank you for the help with the test! Abhi just gave me a call and he will be seeing me in a bit. My professor from Humber just gave me a call, he rescheduled my test. And just a second ago, dad called me to say that he will pick me up from Downtown today instead of UTM because he doesn't wanna miss Kaun Banega Crorepati. Apparently, someone is going to win the gameshow today. And wow, I am getting a lot of calls today. That just disrupted the entire flow of the blog. So, I am gonna stop being pathetic and YouTube who is gonna win, lol. Bye guys!
P.S. Most of you have probably noticed that there is always a relationship or pattern between the titles, pictures and content of each blog post I make. I choose them carefully and quite purposely. So, I wanted to make the point that I am not only 'confined' in this little cubicle in the library, I am confining myself to my room at home - no more parties, and confining myself to my books - no networking anymore and the list goes on. Enjoy your day! :)
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