To be a bride...

Hello again.

Here I am... answering the most asked question since the day I got married. "How does it feel?" People are still asking me this question a month and a half later. In fact, I know that I will continue to get this question from people for at least a couple more months.

My Choora

I will try to keep it short and precise. Just how most of our professors at U of T wanted our essays to be. If you asked me this question a month ago, the answer would have been different. I was surrounded with people at all times. My husband and I didn't have any privacy. Everyone lives in a joint family and they had tonnes of kids. I never really got to feel the 'marriage' part, until today.

Now as I sit back and relax in my new home, I am trying to figure out how it feels to be married. The "bridal" feelings came very early on. It was February 2013, when our parents met and approved our relationship. That was our 'Roka.' The engagement came pretty much a couple months later. And before I knew it... a year had passed by and it was time for my wedding.

For the most part, I am still surprised that it all passed. If I could describe my wedding in one word.. I would call it a "blur." It literally flew by. Let me recall my activities from the wedding day..

Maiyyan Ceremony

I woke up and immediately sat in the pooja. I showered after the pooja and 'choora ceremony' and grabbed my wallet and went out the door with Kanchi. We went to a nail salon to get my nails done. Then, I came back home to grab a quick drink of water and a light snack. Before I knew it, I was being dropped off to the salon. It took me 3 hours to get ready. I cried through my makeup 3 times because I didn't like it. They had to keep re-doing it. I was so upset. I had around 120 hair pins in my hair that weren't pinned in the most comfortable way. They just poked it wherever they could. They put in such a heavy headpiece for my bun to the point I could have strained my neck by tilting my head back with that amount of weight. I was NOT happy. I didn't smile through my photoshoot. The photographers had come to the salon to get some footage of me getting ready. I yelled at them and sent them back. I didn't let them take a single shot of me. Fast forward to sitting in the bridal suite at the venue. It was time for me to walk out and the photographers hadn't given me a single second to fix my makeup. I was walking out with the biggest frown on my face thinking of all the things that had gone wrong. As I entered the hall in the 'paalki'... I saw Nish. The moment I saw him... my face lit up and I smiled at him. As he smiled back at me and waited for the paalki to approach him, I forgot about every single thing. Since that moment, I was happily involved in all the rituals at my wedding. And I was truly happy by the end of the night.

Wedding Outfits

This morning, I woke up at 7:30 a.m. Kanchi might be jumping with joy after reading this sentence. She knows I seldom see the sun rise because I wake up so late. I had this "wifey" urge to wake up right after Nish woke up. I made a cup of tea for him and boiled some eggs. I kissed him goodbye and YouTubed recipes for lunch. I made Veg Pulao for lunch and I was so happy when he came home early today and actually appreciated my efforts. After I finish this blog, I am gonna worry about dinner. I've kept the dishes clean and all these "wifey" instincts are just coming to me by default. Today, I can say... it feels amazing to be married. It feels like you are loved. It feels like you have solved a big purpose of your being. It feels like a world of happiness is awaiting you. Now, that we have some privacy... we can truly appreciate each other and spend some quality time. We can talk, watch movies and be playful.

I have about 6 suitcases and 7 boxes that need unpacking. It will at least take me 2 weeks to get everything settled in. But I am so excited to organize everything and actually create a system in this house. Control freak alert, haha.

Life isn't perfect. Neither are we. Nish and I are not used to sharing space yet. But we are working on it, lol. He's watching his dog videos as I am sitting here blogging. Now, I am off to make a whole wheat pizza for dinner. I hope you enjoyed reading. Good night, people.