Fuck you, weather.

The screen's a bit blurry to me right now, as my eyes are watering but I need to vent. I apologize for any grammatical or spelling errors that I am not going to bother correcting in this post. I am SICK and by tomorrow, I feel I am going to be REALLY sick. I mentioned this earlier, that I have the weakest immune system ever and I am bound to get sick at every season change. As thankful I  was to God, for not letting it snow that much this winter (while also worrying about global warming), I was positive that I will survive this winter without getting sick. I guess I jinxed myself. Yesterday, I went out with Nish for an ice cream date. Either it was the ice cream or the fact that I did not wear a jacket for the most part yesterday. It's MY fault. The weather yesterday afternoon was pretty good, and it was sunny.. so I did NOT wear a jacket. But I was only out for like an hour or so. Anyway.. that doesn't matter.

I don't know how to organize myself anymore. I am always lazy, and I always procrastinate so much, no matter how much I promise myself not to. I had a 35% assignment due tonight, and I haven't started it yet. Because I spent the weekend studying for my Statistics test, which is tomorrow for 25%. We also had to attend this mandatory family party on the weekend which took up like 9 hours of my time! Last week, I had a 40% midterm and a 15% assignment due. And I am clearly not done my assignment OR yet prepared for the test. I took a Tylenol 500 last night because I wanted to get up early and study but I couldn't. I couldn't even sleep last night till 3:45 am. I woke up at 2:00 pm today with the biggest headache. My head's been spinning since. I had another Tylenol 500 as soon as I woke up. And I just had dinner, and had two Amoxycilin (antibiotics). I wanted to start antibiotics TODAY so I can get well in about 3-4 days. I need to go heavy on the dosage (about three times a day) because I have so many things coming up!

I am planning to sleep early tonight, may be in about 2 hours. In those 2 hours, I am planning to at least get started on the assignment that was due today. And it will be due tomorrow at 3:00 pm for a 5% deduction. Therefore, I am planning to finish it before 3:00 tomorrow. I have to manage to get up at 7:00 am and run off to Humber to work on it. I am gonna go to the doctor's office later in the afternoon to get a note for the test. I will write the make up test in April. Because there is just NO way I can even bother with 9 chapters (of which, I have only done 5 by the way) before tomorrow.

To top it off, my schedule is insane! Let's just say that my parents have been pressuring me to book my driving test, and only I know that I am not ready! They think I say that because I am phobic and I am just anxious about the test. But no, I mean it when I say I am not ready. It's next week Wednesday! In exactly 7 days from today, and I don't even know how to park - not parallel, not reverse, not even straight in like some plaza. How are these people expecting me to pass? I don't wanna waste $150 but they don't understand that I need more time and practice. I cannot learn all types of parking perfectly in the next 7 days. I probably won't even have the time of 7 days.

Tomorrow: Working on assignment, doctor's note, getting home at 5:00 pm. I would wanna drop dead by then, because I am pretty sure I will be MORE sick tomorrow. But I need to practice at least ONE type of parking tomorrow, probably parallel.

Thursday: I have a class from 9 till noon. I am planning to get home by 3:00ish and I have a lesson with the instructor after SIX months. Remember, how I took 7 lessons in August? And ever since, I just left it..? Yeah, facing a different instructor on Thursday after six months, I don't know how that's gonna go. He will be able to give me a true evaluation of whether I am ready or not. But I feel that they don't tell you the truth because they just want their money, and whether you fail or pass is not their concern.

I also have to email my professor for the Independent Study project I am enrolled in. I have an annotated bibliography for 20% due the week of the test. I need to get started on it on THURSDAY after practicing driving.

Friday: It's my day off and I am planning to work on the project till mom gets home. I will be the only one home because everyone's gonna be at work till 3:00 pm and that gives me good enough time to finish off school work. Once my mom is home, I am gonna go for a 2 hour PRETENTIOUS driving test. In the first hour, I am planning to practice safe driving +  3 point turn + uphill + downhill parking + parallel parking. In the second hour, I am planning to practice reverse parking and just straight parking between two cars.

Saturday & Sunday: Again, working on the project and PARKING PARKING PARKING!
Also, I have an assignment due on Monday for Humber, which I need to squeeze in somewhere.

Monday: I need to work on the project that I have due in the evening. I also need to spend a good 3-4 hours grooming myself for Valentine's Day (Trust me, it's gonna take THAT long). I also need to pack some things and finalize everything that I have for that day. When my mom gets home at 4:00 pm, I am planning to go for a one hour driving/parking lesson with the instructor before I go to class which is at 6:30 - 9:30 pm.

Tuesday: IS THE BIG DAY! Valentine's Day.. and I have time for nobody that day, but HIM. And I cannot practice shit that day, which is my biggest fear! I MIGHT just go for a drive at night when I get home around 9:00 or 10:00 pm. DAMNIT! Why did this day have to be a Tuesday? And why did it have to be my test the next day?

Wednesday: ANOTHER BIG DAY - My driving test! I leave from here about 8:30 am I guess, my test is scheduled for the afternoon though and I AM shit scared! I have no confidence whatsoever!


Thursday: My 20% annotated bibliography due! This day also gives me time to celebrate or mourn over my pass/fail in the test.

Friday: ANOTHER Valentine's Day party with him <3 at UTM.

And yeah.. that's what my schedule looks like as of now. I am major freaking out. I swear, I am gonna pass out. Right about now.