Viewing the world through my lens..

 Leave me alone? This is my 149th blog post, with 10,499 total blog views and 146 response comments. I started off with writing to myself. Then, I started posting links to my friends (because most of my day or routine had to do with them). And soon after, I was posting the links on Facebook with maximum 6-10 blog views per blog. Now, I get nearly 60-85 blog views per blog. Then, there are exceptional ones that go above a hundred. (And no, these are not great numbers - but these are views I JUST get from Facebook because I don't advertise or publish my blog elsewhere). I don't write because I know these numbers. I don't. I don't know who is reading and who isn't, unless you comment. I can see the countries and the number of views. That's all.

Does this change my writing in any way? Yes, it does. Not that I write anything purposely. But now, I am just a little careful with writing minute-to-minute details about my life. I am concerned that I can be stalked. I don't write about where I live, and where I hang out etc. And quite obviously, I don't describe any personal or intimate problems publicly. And those are the only changes that have stemmed from the expansion of this blog.

When I first started writing, I was fourteen. This blog isn't my first connection with my feelings translated into words. The first poem I wrote was in grade 8. In fact, I wrote three poems in grade 8. I know this because I turned two of them in for my English literature class. I still remember. I had this purple diary when I was fourteen, I am guessing I bought it from the dollar store. I used to write just 1 or 2 pages when I was upset. Sometimes, I used to write my daily findings.

It's been roughly a year and a half for me on Blogger now. This is my therapy, I like venting. I stay cool and composed when I let go of all the things that bother me. So, that's a reminder to you guys (those who have been commenting on my whiny nature). I complain in writing, I don't do it in person. I mean, really? At least give me the permission to write freely. I don't wanna read your judgments about me. I know I am throwing myself out there to criticism because this is a public place. But the fact that I have "permitted" Anonymous comments is so you can connect with me, even if you don't know me. Not so you can sit there and put me down. And that ain't easy anyway.

In short.. why I write:-
- NOT to impress anyone or create false impressions
- To capture those wonderful, memorable experiences.. and hopefully look back to them (I do this a lot)
- To help think things over and reflect on my own actions
- Because writing is very therapeutic. It helps me understand where I am going and what I am doing.
- Also, when I feel lost - I have you guys not only as an audience, but as friends to let me know where I stand
- I simply enjoy it, it's my thing <3
- To clear my mind, vent feelings of anger, pain and hurt
- To share my happiness and achievements with the world, NOT to brag
- And hopefully, to open up a part of me that's accessible to you other than just my pictures (to show you that there is substance in my personality, other than the appearance)
- To tell you that there's much more that goes on in my head other than what lipstick to wear. I am not fucking all about makeup. Get over yourselves and stop judging. It shows what you are, and says nothing about me. Like please, tell me how someone's ability to look good interferes with their potential to use their brain cells?
- And just to have that moral support from YOU, knowing that I am NOT in it ALONE.


Anyway, I thought I should throw this out there because it was bothering me from a few days. Also, most of the feedback I have received on Blogger has been wonderful and positive. So thank you guys once again! Have a great day ahead..