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Tuesday, January 4, 2011

My Vanishing Information.

A lot of you asked me why I am being so childish with everything. Deleting all means of communication and all that... I think I need time alone. I understand that it's not a solution to the problems but it helps not being distracted. Thanks to those who asked me not to leave. I love you guys for caring! But a lot has to be figured out this year for me. I won't state it here but believe me, I think like a maniac. As far as I have lived, I have probably thought more in bed than I slept. Ok no, that was exaggeration. But still. I need time to get away from the Facebook addiction and other people's problems. I need time away from the vortex of social drama. Most importantly, I need to give time to myself.

Figure out what I wanna do this year. How I am gonna do it. What more do I want. How I am going to accomplish it. What happens if I fail? What am I gonna do if I don't succeed? What are the alternatives?
Pretty much everything.

Also, I didn't mention this to you guys but I am doing something I never thought I would. I am putting myself on some herbal diet while gymming. I am hoping I won't have any side effects once I get onto normal food but let's see.. I am gonna try it out for 4 months and see how I do with it. Losing weight should be done naturally I think yet I am still going against my belief. You guys remember I mentioned my cholesterol is high at this age? That is super risky. And scary. I wanna be a hawt mama. Not a sick mama. LOL.

So yeah.. I am allotting myself the time frame of four months to see how well I can do with studies, dieting, gymming and giving time to myself. For all of you who have been through this or are going through this, I posted up a link in my previous blogs to a very inspirational human being. I adore her. She worked hard and she looks absolutely stunning! Losing weight could be compared to setting off a rocket. You have to fuel up before you take off. And once you do, it's easy. I always fail at the fuel, let alone taking off. Only getting started is hard. Plus, I wanna make it a lifestyle and not treat it like some diet plan. A lot of you advised that I should go with a personal trainer. I have to make myself used to the gym first and see how I do alone.

See, I have all valid reasons for vanishing. ( hey don't make that face!)
After being stupid today, I don't want to prolong my stupidity till tomorrow by not waking up for school. It's 2 a.m. tonight but I am gonna try to sleep by 11 pm everyday. Good night guys =]

5 comments:

  1. Diets are useless. What happens after these 4 months? Are you going to live on a herbal diet for the rest of your life to maintain a figure?

    Being an obese kid at one point, I know what it's like to go through that initial struggle. You dont need a personal trainer, you need determination and hard hitting motivation. The rest will fall into place. Your trainer can help you with choosing the right exercises, and the right foods to eat, but not the determination and willpower, which most people lack terribly when trying to lose weight. Make it a point to never miss a day at the gym. Mind you, you dont have to go to the gym just to be active, stay on your feet constantly. Read and walk, if you have to. Watch TV while you do some jumping jacks. Just keep active at all times. Do not eat past 9 pm. Avoid eating fatty stuff at night. Eat a healthy breakfast and a healthy lunch. DO NOT snack. Unless you're snacking on fruits. Stay away from chocolate and cake for good. Once in a while is okay, but that goes with saying a slice of cake, one tiny bar of chocolate, not the entire cake or the entire block of chocolate. But most importantly, stay active, active, active, active, and motivated. Once you're motivated, believe me, no Oreo cake in this world can get you to look at it twice.

    Good luck.

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  2. Also, I forgot to mention, every time you feel like you must eat something, ask your self one very important question: Are you HUNGRY or simply BORED/EMOTIONAL.

    If you're bored, find something else to do. Food is not the answer. I had this problem myself, and once you view it from an objective standpoint, trust me you cut down on half of your food consumption. Eat at the right time, and eat the right amount at that time, and do not deviate from it. If you need to snack for the sake of chewing, chew on some gum, or eat an apple.

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  3. Uhm wow. I don't know what to say. I know diets are useless, that's why I said I am going against my belief. But I have a close friend who lost nearly 35 lbs within 6 months with that diet. She is the one encouraging me go on it. I guess it was mostly her will power as you mentioned, and the fact that she hasn't gone on regular food after the diet. Because it taught her how to practice control, and she still eats healthy. I am confused. Your message made a huge difference to what I was thinking. I am not even obese. I am a few pounds overweight but my doctor said I could touch obesity soon if I don't care now. Moreover, I am severely asthmatic (I can't run) and I have high cholesterol. Despite all that, I still don't have the drive to do something about it. I don't wanna diet but I wanna have a healthy lifestyle. You are right, being active is it. Whether it's taking stairs instead of the elevator or walking my own block if not the treadmill.

    Thank you for the word of advice :)

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  4. Sorry, I didn't mean to sound harsh. I apologize if I did.

    Just stay active, and avoid eating heavy at night. You can do it. If I could you sure as hell can. You're a very beautiful girl, with a dashing personality, and great talents to augment that. You handle courses at 3 different campuses at once, which I would probably choke myself if I had to do.

    You can do it. Just look in the mirror, see a beautiful girl, but just from a health's stand point, do it for yourself.

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  5. Nah, you weren't harsh. It was just 'the truth up in my face.' And thank you so much for your kind words and encouragement! :)

    I am gonna do the best I can! As you'll see in the upcoming post, I have already started my work.

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